Thoughts on how to continue what works

• I would like to find some way to have a discussion on what I have learnt in the week. Be it a podcast or just a group

Meaning crisis

• Even if one always chooses to be rational, one’s actions may appear irrational from a higher/lower level perspective.
• Links with the Small World Network, efficiency/resiliency
• What is it to be irrational? Romanticism? Affording breaking frame?

meaning crisis

• I noticed JV had distilled our quest as:
  • distinct Perennial Problems that appear due to the machinery of relevance realisation
  • and that we can overcome these problems with known practises
• He sumerised enlightenment as the developmental process that gives us reliable amelioration and alleviations of the perennial problems.
  • I like it
  • Is this NLP? as it seems formulaic….

Thoughts on the Meaning crisis

• Sacretness is
  • Serious play (Religio)
  • Fuelled by participatory symbols/concepts/context such as rituals, work (Mythos)
  • With an self-organising, intrinsically interested and evolving relevance realising
• Sacred
  • Not absolute product
  • The ongoing transjective relationship process of RR

Meaning crisis study group

• Great insight into how the brain works
  • Continually pulsating, breaking/making frame
  • consciously managing our insights, affording salient relevance selecting and wiring
  • proceeding with care/responsibility

family life

• Managing my partner becoming claustrophobic and irritable
• Making a balance between doing what I think is best and being a servant to my requirements to keep the peace
• Noticing being honest while walking away made my partner explosive. Not the best tactic!

Meaning crisis conversation

• Great discussion. I’m going to try to gather my thoughts.

• We are subject to an ever evolving and complexifying arena with a combinatorial explosive / uncertain problem space and potential goal states
• Inherent domain constraints and agent / arena fittedness providing a capsulated perception of constraints, conflicts, orientation, meaning and purpose
• As autopoietic self-organising systems, we primarily strive to maintain ourselves through optimising our ability to adapt and transcend
  • Relevance Realising / General Intelligence / Optimising opponent processing of
    • Efficiency (simplify/compressing)
    • Resiliency (complexify/particularising)
  • There is feedback dance between the agent / arena relationship
  • There is a velocity to transcendence
    • Flow state balance
    • Cultural / experiential time constraints of knowing
      • Propositional (belief statement to be true/false)
      • Procedural (way of doing something)
      • Perspectival (view)
      • Participatory (action with)
• History has shown this dynamic suffering of opponent beliefs
  • having / being
  • certainty / uncertainty
  • complexification / simplification

What are the lessons I am learning here

• Notice the patterns!
  • Sometimes efficiency wins, maintaining the status-quo through containing / self-deception and optimising through simplification.
  • Sometimes the imposed pressure to change requires letting go and breaking frame towards something more fitting.
  • There is an optimal grip on the balance between efficiency and resiliency that relieves suffering, this is GI/RR
  • One needs to adapt to culture as well as be an individual expression.
• Maybe a simplified view of our task in existence is to
  • Constantly complexify ourselves for fittness with the constantly complexifying environment, to survive by updating ourselves to the environment and update the environment to ourselves.
  • This includes discovering the meta patterns and particulars of how we optimise this process and ready ourselves for even greater potentiality
  • Accept that one derives meaning and purpose from the constraints of the domain.
    • When meaning and purpose dries up, there is more out there to be found, but work is needed to breaking frame and discover it.
    • This process is circular and essential for the optimisation process.
    • There is plenty of historic examples to draw from.

Reading Jordan Peterson : Maps of Meaning

• Enjoyed the prologue of the book
  • Although my life experience is different, maybe less dramatic, I can relate to a similar existential crisis
    • Loosing confidence in main cultural structures like coding, business, values, truth, law and more
    • Attempting to only make actions/opinions that I know to believe to be true, but left with nothing/little to say
    • Importance of finding out/ curing this frozen position

Looking back at coaching website

• Need to beautify / seem professional
• Noticing that other people climbed the conformist ladder further than me and remained with large ambition
• Need to write much more, reaching out to pain points, bridging with empathy, clarity and confidence building
• Maybe charge little, speak to Nina about her experience

Study group awakening from the meaning crisis

• Really interesting episode that brought up two definitions of the will as a response to romanticism
  • Will to live (Schopenhauer, nihilism)
    • Life is pointless, just survival
  • Will to Power (Nietzsche, postmodernism)
    • Self-transcendence, but also self-deception
• Also how romanticism came about.
  • Perception filters of rationality distorting reality
  • Leading to experiments of imaginary as creator of reality, replacing religion
    • Napoleon expressing himself onto the world
• The standard of conversation is high. I feel like I am keeping up, but I appear to be annoying one of the people through expressing propositions. Sometimes I seem to lack some philosophical finesse, which appears to break down the communication a little. I like that people keep me in check, forcing me to double check myself. I hope it is sustainable for them.

Study group awakening from the meaning crisis

• Feeling a bit let down as all of the original participants are not attending.
• I let myself talk from a personal level with quite an articulate description of where I am failing to move on. The other people expressed resonance with my situation. However, there was no advancement.
• I think studying Descartes and Hobbes evoked and supported the feeling of meaninglessness in life.
• It was good to be there as a reminder of where I have come from

Study group awakening from the meaning crisis

• I had a hard time coming to terms with learning about Martin Luther. His ideas seemed quite a distance from mine.
• It was good to see the soulless viewpoint of Descartes as a boundary of thought and reflective positioning from my viewpoint.
  • It highlights the mack of connectedness I have experienced though long exposure to logic in my career

Studying Eckart, Ockham, Black death, Commercialism, Galileo

• Really interesting take on the beginning of commercialism and scientific wipe out of the spirit/soul as important and therefore aspect of reality

Thoughts while studying Augustine and Aquinas

• It seems our dependency of having propositional thought to explain reality has swamped our ability to know through experiencing reality

Thoughts while taking notes on subpersonalities

• Maybe I should compile a comprehensive list of my subpersonalities and find the higher transpersonal quality between them

Listening to a podcast by actualised on The big picture of Personal development

This was a fantastic summary and I need to go through it again making notes. I didn’t agree with his final statement that we have the capacity to know everything. Also, I noticed that he forgot something that feels, to me, a fundamental reason for personal development. Long standing species, such as a bee, has an optimal grip on being a bee as an agent in its arena. Humans, however, are not in harmony with their environment and therefore unsustainable.

Meaning crisis Study group

• Focus on existential inertia and gnosis.

  • Using psycho technologies (context) along with a higher state of consciousness
  • Activates and transform perspectival and participatory knowing, optimal grip on reality
  • Liberates from existential entrapment (stuck / stupefied)

• This was a fascinating discussion group and seemed really related to the conversation I had just before. I loved the description in existential inertia as this was a state I felt so strongly in the building towards my company exit. One could look at the exit process both as inflicted and self-inflicted, and to a greater extent the battle against change would have been a tricky one and therefore not really inert. However, I really related to this state as the need to understand what I would lose and miss out on was so great and unknowable. I wished that one of the coaches/therapists had role-played this scenario with me.

• There was a new guy on the group called Tim of whom I connected, meeting him with a similar level of energy, enthusiasm and pace.

Chat with course member

• I had some fears with how people may perceive me as having organized a course group social with no one turning up. I also decided to just allow it and not waste energy on such a thought. Someone did turn up halfway through the announced time. I chose to completely look over any thought I may have had in what that person may have thought about joining lonely me.
• We had a fab discussion, talking about our experience in the lead up to the course and during our first few days.
• A running theme of the conversation included the benefits of the course over simply self study. We both agreed that now was the time, and putting it off would simply lead to not being as deep the following year regardless of continuing the course or not. Also that we appreciated the aspect of play within the thematic seminars as something we all need more in life.
• I felt I got a little closer to the student with keen interest to continue pushing for more connection.

Preparations for psychosynthesis course

• Start journal (this) by bring up to date
• Write High level course structure
• Order foundations google docs folder in prep for workbook

Preparations for personal therapist

• Start autobiography notes
• Snapshot of Personal character map. Including and salience ordering of values, capable arenas/mediums, vision
• Snapshot of salient questions

Conversations with Joshua

• What is a highly beneficial and plausible occupation right now and into the future?
• Above satisfying personal survival needs, such as finances to pay the bills and family attention to connect and satisfy the needs of my immediate loved ones.

Meaning

• Immersion in the details of a container promotes a self-deception of reality. It is visible through my own experience the beliefs I had for the benefit of the container while immersed in it were strongly purposeful, yet outside the container could seem meaningless or trivial.
• If the arena is correct, then it would include support for the agent being human and all the facets and limitations that come with that.
• Beliefs seem important in order to maintain the existing structures. If we all put our attention on metadata, many survival needs, such as health, security, law would collapse.

Therefore, to support the creation of transcendable arenas for all humanity might not be a positive strategy.

Personal integration

• Possible occupation of a coach
• Music for me would benefit as an expression of my agency for others to reflect from

Company integration

• Companies encourage a shared cultural ideology and orientation of the individuals that work there, but are often orientated towards capitalism values due to their need for survival in the current culture. What would it take for a company to listen to the idea of transcendence?
• Companies such as Shell and BT have announced the orientation away from the use of fossil fuels. However, their motivation might be from the wrong source, being one of survival pressure need to continue their existing capitalism values of growth instead of agape love for the other (environment)

Meaning crisis Study group

• Looking at the three Greek definitions of love (Eros - consuming, Filia - cooperation, Agape - creation and open future). I gained understanding that Jesus’ core Christian message to “forgive” was largely misinterpreted. Not to move on from the others wrong doing, but instead defined as follows:

Forgive

• to give
• with no expectation of repayment,
• and furthermore, to give the salient landscape to the other
• for their own transcendence
• out of love
• for the other and their arena,
• being a process that is said to not fail.

Salient questions

• How does this compare to the term ‘Unconditional love’?
• Does the natural facets of being a person struggle with the process of Agape?
• Is the process term Agape a good fit for the term ‘God’?
• Insights easily become ideologies, with the vulnerability to create a frame. Is there a formulaic process to balance the pursuing and immersion of an insight and the de-centralisation of it to open room for creation?
• Was the pressure to upkeep the arena of Roman alpha-male dominance setting the scene for self-deceptive hope for the less advantaged? Or was the message of participatory agape love plausible?