Walk with Jimmy

• Mostly done out of responsibility for him rather than me
  • Realised I had a lot to give
• Was pulled out on something
  • responded to the correction very well
  • Spoke a lot!
• Reminded myself of the joys of companionship, and aimlessly wandering outside

Chat with Joshua

• Great summarising of my current thoughts and relating it to my life. Went too fast and covered too much detail to write here. Will try in the future
• Write summary

Online stoicism talk

The talk went through the 7 pillars of stoicism. I asked some question at the end to make use of being there, but would have like more interactive participation. I don’t fell as though I will join that group again for a while.

Walk with Nina

I gave her an update on my findings with the study group and how the existential inertia described by the Gnostics felt so relevant in my life. We pondered meaning and while she was explaining something, an off topic thought entered my head.

• Meaning and knowledge:
  • Meaning arises through experiencing a difference between the sides of a boundary combined with the forces for change, where the potentiality for change holds meaning.
  • The degree of agency to observe, analyse and manipulate the sameness and difference of the boundary experienced is structured through the inherited culture, a personal history, and the application the potentialities of change offers.
  • Insight as a defined understanding itself comes with limitations and vulnerability to self-deception.
• Forces:
  • Creativity, curiosity, improvement
  • Fulfilment, flow, achievement, belonging
  • Uncomfort, boredom, anxiety
  • Clumsy undeveloped subpersonalities taking hold
  • Existential inertia, not having the needed perspectival and participatory knowing
• Bringing it together for integration and action: When looking at what path to direct myself, is the activity of creating a good life one of choosing the agent and arena I want to be and within that provides limits that affords meaning and the forces for change? If so, do I simply sucom to the limits and self-deception within that container?

Preparations for psychosynthesis course

• Start journal (this) by bring up to date
• Write High level course structure
• Order foundations google docs folder in prep for workbook

Preparations for personal therapist

• Start autobiography notes
• Snapshot of Personal character map. Including and salience ordering of values, capable arenas/mediums, vision
• Snapshot of salient questions

Conversations with Joshua

• What is a highly beneficial and plausible occupation right now and into the future?
• Above satisfying personal survival needs, such as finances to pay the bills and family attention to connect and satisfy the needs of my immediate loved ones.

Meaning

• Immersion in the details of a container promotes a self-deception of reality. It is visible through my own experience the beliefs I had for the benefit of the container while immersed in it were strongly purposeful, yet outside the container could seem meaningless or trivial.
• If the arena is correct, then it would include support for the agent being human and all the facets and limitations that come with that.
• Beliefs seem important in order to maintain the existing structures. If we all put our attention on metadata, many survival needs, such as health, security, law would collapse.

Therefore, to support the creation of transcendable arenas for all humanity might not be a positive strategy.

Personal integration

• Possible occupation of a coach
• Music for me would benefit as an expression of my agency for others to reflect from

Company integration

• Companies encourage a shared cultural ideology and orientation of the individuals that work there, but are often orientated towards capitalism values due to their need for survival in the current culture. What would it take for a company to listen to the idea of transcendence?
• Companies such as Shell and BT have announced the orientation away from the use of fossil fuels. However, their motivation might be from the wrong source, being one of survival pressure need to continue their existing capitalism values of growth instead of agape love for the other (environment)