Thoughts on chapters

• The limbo, the beginning, middle and end of a chapter is very linked to the stages of Will
  • As one has mastered the subject and anxiety turns to oneness with the arena, one creates room for another creation
  • During the overlap, there is a relationship dance between the two creativities
  • To survive, the new creation needs to see potential and then develop a strong force to impress itself into the arena
  • The space is not big enough for the two and the strong will puts pressure on the being will of the first.
  • With a firm understanding, the first can initiate the letting go process back into limbo, allowing the second the opportunity to master and lead
  • chapters seeming analogous to granular synthesis:
    

    

• With relation to the dynamics in the RD group:
  • There is a dance of play
  • Maybe I am asked to to role the frustrater allowing them to highlight, question part old frames and head towards the limbo stageMaybe for me, it is doing the same. To part the impressive drive and learn to listen

Meeting with the course tutor

• Reluctant to being one person to lead the conversation as I was wanting the relational dynamics trainer’s opinion. Instead I received what I expected from the meeting
  • The tutor was not present so could not give me the professional opinion of my questions of what was happening in the group
    • was the group heading in an unhealthy direction
    • was this normal and part of what was expected
    • was I in the wrong and am behaving unhealthily within the group
  • He shielded me from talking to the trainer and suggested I spoke to my therapist and waited for the next session to bring this up
  • Even though unwilling to help, he is at least aware of what happened to take into consideration in the future
  • I acknowledged that I did learn from this experience non-the-less