The Creative Use of Pain Crisis and Failure

Map not the territory
Is you believe, life can become hard
This topic is modals, not the truth
- Not be to heal
- Explain away
- Rationalise
Awareness and will is key
- Also acceptance
Principles of creative use
Progressive
Exercises - Personal bottom up and top down
Global crisis
Can perceive problems
Can perceive uniqueness and problem
Can perceive purpose
Can perceive a soul with a purpose, with plan and purpose Where do you want to put yourself Context / content

Meditation

Imagine bad in the world
Now imagine the opposite
Now imagine your part in that
What does it feel?
- Easy to picture the bad
- The good appears as Agapic
- Where do I fit in - am I ready?
- Too much - everything
Imagine something that would bring you to your part in the world
Imagine slowly becoming that part
Imagine looking back at yourself and what you would say
- Hard to believe
- There is more than you know, You don’t need to know/master it.
- You will naturally become it over time if it wants
- push/pull - intuitional dance

Principles

What is this choice thing?
Empowers, actively engage the situation you are in
Can’t disidentify until you have experienced something existentially
- Can’t avoid
- Allow, accept, embrace before moving forward
- Self-regulate, experience and step back
No will in identification (framing)
- No center ‘I’ in whatever we identified with
Goal is not to become centred
- Not all the time
Act of will, not trying to repel, see the message
See how it can serve us
This is top down
- What is the next step
- Transpersonal
If something is trying to emerge, there will be pain
Insight - new pattern becomes available
Not just evolutionary, but also revolutionary
- If you get lost in identification you are holding on to the pain
Requires active open mindedness
Self is not conditionally alive
- Nothingness from which everything becomes
- You can be true to yourself at anytime, be angry, be despair
- Soul self is not conditional

Exercise

List of crisis in chronological order
- Identity as a musician and the opportunities that came with it
- Identity as a director and the opportunities that came with that
- Not knowing what I believe and how I fit in
Crisis number 1
- Reflect on the Philosophy of life before
  - Service
  - Participation
  - Fittedness
- Reflect after
  - Empty
  - Meaningless
- Learnt
  - New ways of seeing
  - Resilience
- Symbol:
  - fire hydrant releasing water
  - Flapping emptiness
  - Light exploration
Crisis number 2
- Reflect on the Philosophy of life before
  - Service, Importance
    - Structure
  - Reactionary
  - Inauthentic
    - Ball and chain
- Reflect after
  - Scared, Empty
  - Deserted / betrayed
  - Free
- Learnt
  - Relationship with a flexible truth, uncertainty
  - Relationship with uniqueness from culture
- Symbol:
  - Boat out at sea - Deserted / betrayed, nothing in sight or to grip onto
Crisis number 3
- Reflect on the Philosophy of life before
  - Confused, Desperate
  - Fierce
  - Unhelpful wanting to be Achiever, pleaser, of benefit
- Reflect after
  - Some agency
- Learnt
  - Sense of being
  - Understanding of wisdom
  - To be more balanced
  - To be more open to finding fittedness as a priority
- Symbol:
All want to belong, love and be love, contribute
Personality want to maintain the status quo
- Comfort, safe
- Change is challenging
Crisis are gifts
Spiritual intelligence (like IQ or EQ) on the edge of knowing / uncertainty
Turn regressive into progressive

Exercise 2

Take an issue 15mins
Partner coaching
Hypothesis together about the potential
- What is the call to do and be
Think of a transpersonal quality
- Love for other
- Feel it merging with you

notes 11/04/2021

Reflections from yesterday
- Evolution is a good bet. Evidence either way
- But how do you want to live your life?
- We need to practice (self) empathy
- Archetypes

Exercise - gestalt technique

Take a crisis you want to know more about
- Talk about it - Partner clarify - (10mins)
- Put the crisis onto the chair
- Talk to the crisis (15mins)
- Talk back
  - Partner help guide
- See if you can find meaning
  - What am I meant to be learning
  - What is life trying to tell you
- Partner becomes the therapist (10mins)
  - Stand up, what do you see in the dialogue between the two?
  - Disidentification, looking at the dialogue
  - What is trying to emerge, be born
  - What is the creative / potential opportunity
Notes on patience - Embark on course
- Career jump
- Brother has interest, supportive,
- Infringing on competitive/shaping my involvement
- Lost individual freedom
- Guilt for not wanting him to do it, happy he is blossoming, I have done all the hard work
- Always feeling really hard, easier to others, appearance
- Favouritism
- Duty
- Fundamental not a good person
- Feeling on self
- Compassion
- Deflection
- Impatience, like dad
How to get enthusiastic about work
- Like the two merged - maybe too rational, didn’t allow to experience
- Humour - how it was perceived, but not actually enjoying it myself!
- What is the potential?!
Energised the crisis
Faced it
Allowing what is
Looked at the dynamic, response
Identify, then disidentify
Need to experience and understand
Look at awareness, consciousness, will
Too much aware without action can be defensive
When we see the potential, transformation begins
What might be the creative potential
Great to hypothesis
Super servers are here
Do not apply to childhood traumas
All about regeneration
- Its ok to avoid, feel it
- All about Regeneration (the natural process of replacing or restoring)
When we are stuck, we need to continue to feel the process
- Personally
- Transpersonal

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Collective and values

How values can serve us https://docs.google.com/document/d/1T-qZWU4KeL9DdpXEvzs3Mp9zbQrUl2pLrnW0dNIoCKc/edit#

Summary

Wisdom - personal development
- Connection
- Relevance
- Care
Agapic love - others development
- Care
- Development
- Connection
How in some subtle way
- Desire, needs - see ourselves in culture
  
  Include our individual contribution, not in beating up, but transpersonal values

Values

Unconsciously drive
Can apply in a dynamic way

Exercise Part 2

Pairs, 15 minutes each (30 min total)
Take a particular challenge that you are facing: looking at your list of your Values,
- How can you apply this Value to the issue?
- How would you apply it?
- What would you do or be?
- How might you change your behaviour?
Develop a Vision of this possibility, this potential for you.
- Processwork uk - psychotherapy
Now take a global or collective issue that humanity is facing. Examples: Covid 19, world hunger, the environment, inequity… Looking at your list of your Values,
- How can you apply this Value to the issue?
- How would you apply it?
- What would you do or be?
- How might you change your behaviour?
Develop a Vision of this possibility, this potential for you.

Summary 2

Responsive, not reactive
Bring transpersonal into crisis
Can’t hurry acceptance
Grow through it
Always have some agency

In the face of pain crisis failure i will

Pause
Trust
Kind to self
Fiends with crisis
Connect to the transpersonal
Cultivate acceptance
Slow down

Personal Feedback

Which ideas have you found the most helpful, meaningful or challenging? Which exercises?: The initial meditation, thinking big, with a following thinking personal was great. It brought up all of the topics into focus. I was reminded of the edge I have been riding of knowing and not knowing which was confirmed with the section on chaos. The other really enjoyable moment was the gestalt chair exercise. However, I don’t feel like I serious played it up enough and there was plenty of room for me to exaggerate and further feel the narratives. I enjoyed hearing other people’s experience all the same.
What has been the high point or major learning of this course for you?: I was really happy to share my wonder of why we would want to develop at all and whether this was the undercurrent of our will. The feedback from Sophie the assistant was valuable and really appreciated.
What has been the quality of the conceptual content? Its organisation? Continuity? Presentation? Clarity?: Great to have been given the slides in advance. I was able to read through them and deepen my connection with the content in the course. Strangely, when writing down my values, I took the opportunity to categorise them and I noticed a pattern that they were equally divided to the development of self and the development of other, then I looked at the questions again and realised that the questions were leading to these answers.
Has there been anything missing from the course or anything you would have liked more of given the time limits? Was there anything which did not work for you or which could have worked more effectively if changed?: It’s a big topic, but I felt it was done justice. I guess I didn’t move on a tremendous distance from my understanding before the session, but I was gifted the opportunity to explore, which I was more than happy with. I did find returning to the 3 past crisis quite uncomfortable and wondered why I had done this. I guess I had been able to express the pattern between them and the lessons learnt, but there wasn’t anything new that came from it. The down side was that I reminded myself to feel angry over night.
What comments do you have about the course trainer(s) and assistants? How was your relationship with the trainer(s)?: Great as always, both Diana and Sophie. I seem to connect with what they say effortlessly.