Self-Realisation & Psychological Disturbances I

Not obstacles in the way
Obstacles are containing soul
There will always be a manifest potential
Increasingly becoming a soul that has a personality - shifting identity
Bring as an expression
Two dimensions of growth
- You are never going to get there
- You are already there
Reframe as potential
- Fulfilment when the inside matches the outside
- not perfect because manifest potential
- Whatever is blocking is emerging potential
Interest in you finding your way
- Unique process
Don’t have a normative chart of the wall as to what a health person looks like
- Freedom to be unique

Outline of weekend

If we are not experiences the content we will become unhappy
There is both longing and resistance to the transpersonal
- Divine homesickness
- At the same time can I be that great? Challenge
Tomorrow is devoted to crisis of spiritual awakening
- Stan graf - breaking up instead of breaking down

Exercise

How you would like to express
- Teamwork baton
What you would like to learn
- Open to change
Joe Dispenza
- all things possible, creating our lives
- Creating new neural pathways
- Scientific side to the visionary RA etc
- In order to break a null pathway, you need to travel it again and again before it disappears
- 20-28 days to create a new pathway

Exercise 2

Define Self-realisation & psychological disturbances
Based on the experience, you are the territory

Situation that felt sacred

On stage, fingers up at the criminal justice bill
Raw energy
Unity / Belonging
Rebel / Freedom

Situation that felt authentic

Lay down on mushrooms
Many appearances / Shape shifter / Flow
Connection with body/feelings/mind memory
Open / observer

Take experiences

How do you define Define Self-realisation, transpersonal
How did you know
What does your experiences have in common
How did these touch you, impact, did they cause crisis
How does the group reflect on Self-realisation, transpersonal
- Not academic

Notes

Sage - flowing source of inspiration - awe
Insight - surprise
Emergence / Balance
Close connection with reality
Unity / individual values
Inwards / outwards - together
Nature - beauty - infinity / particular
Timeless
Universal Will
Healing - social validity - service

Others

Greater than me, but I am part of
Tears of gratitude
Nothing and everything
Vast and particular
Everything having its place
Unity - belonging, dissolving duality
Rightness / grace - don’t question experience, you know this is transpersonal
Calm / Flow
Losing edges - in a field
Calling
Co-creation
Love - heart as open channel
Freedom
Re-framing as soul with a personality
Resistance - fear, unwillingness, too good
Over identified becomes stuck

Universal principle that unifies, heals and gives meaning
- Doesn’t need to be dramatic
- Maslow talks about the transpersonal in the plateau
Psychosynthetic non-dualism
Beyond self as a separate being - transcended
Danger
- becoming over identified
- Without it gives experience of crisis
If we identify with the content
- Chasing
- Crisis of duality
  - Gap of what is and what could be
  - Side tracking, spiritual bypassing
- Can reach the top, but cant breath so at some point we come down
  - Leads to unhappiness
Remain within
There is some potential trying to be born through the framing
Grace
Find basecamp on the mountain
- Can be boring, mundane
Gestalt - put on empty chair
Diagnostic exercise
- Relationship between self and gestalt
- Exploring, more aware
20 min, chair dialogue
- Imagine on empty chair symbolic sense of self
- Ask whatever needs to be said
- 3rd = 3rd party observer
- Say what you want to feel, try not to hold back
- Explore the relationship between you and your soul
- Facilitator can be lose support
- Resistance / projection (spiritual superego - how you should be)
Myself Notes
- Image
  - Shape shifting gas,
  - rainbow,
  - mixing and separating
- Constraints - Pressure
  - Expectation
    - From self
    - Partner
    - Culture
  - Time
    - Mortality
    - Social expectation
- Acceptance
- Unity, Balance,
- Definition, openness to the unknown
- Calmness
- No truth, just emergence
- Trapped
- Obstacles are what is
- More in tune with my soul now than a few years ago
  - Open to it as some source of guidance
- Frames of resistance
  - Stabilise
  - Preservation of self need open to newness
- Soul as beyond comprehension
- Slow down - but with frames - tall ask
  - Most beneficial choice, balance my expectation
- Conversation was very meta
  - Missing human connection
  - Reason I am here is to challenge my connection with humanity
  - Being with and having awe for for what it
  - Lacking the awe of infinity
  - Lack of passion is a lack of awe
Summary
- Constraints - expectation, mortality / chapters, signs to be used
- Open to newness is a tall ask
- Balance
  - towards being human
  - allowing passion/awe
- No truth, Small steps towards orientation, not destination

Other notes

Personal
- Strange, wonder,
  - why you don’t show up to question strong will
  - To give sureness
  - Why Don’t insist
- Presence
  - Shift, slower calmer, fulfilling, less busy
  - Know what is it like to be
  - Without back into doing
- Head stops me
  - Resentful without you, left to my own devices
  - Snakes and ladders
  - Where is your hand, stepping out the maze
- Why don’t you stick around?
  - Is it me
  - Step up!
  - I can see you laughing
- Feel independent
  - Capable
  - Aren’t you me with potential
  - Mother child relationship
Self
- Not laughing at you
- You are right about parent relationship
- Sometime you are a toddler, and it makes me love you more
- Personal essay we wrote together - soul with a personality
- Why do you feel the need for the personality take over?
- Maybe that it the lesson you need to learn
- Outwards skin
- You know that
- What would it be like to surrender? Try being, You say that all the time.
Personal
- Hate it when you are right, carefully constructed
- Don’t want the upheaval, too much from me
- Comfortable
Self
- Not comfortable, yes materially, not in your heart (explored in therapy)
- Maybe personality is comfortable
Personal
- Inherently lazy
- Know what I really want to do
- Don’t want to start again
Self
- Start again at what?
- Scared of failure?
- Always here
- I’m the best, calmest part of you
Personal
- Don;t want to let go of what I have
Self
- It’s not about what the personality wants
- Just laugh, it’s not that complicated
Personal
- I know you are right, you feel like me at my best
- Didn’t get to resist, stamp, rebel, so rebelling against my Self

Meditation - temple of silence

Form of disidentification, place of stillness, centre, ‘I’, beyond our personality

Crisis is one of Assegioli’s greatest contributions
Spiritual awakening is pathological, depression, borderline psychotic
If you allow people to go through their spiritual awakening, it is very fruitful
People set up a centre to make a safe space (so they don’t get rejected by society)
Calling us to open up to meaning and purpose
Can be blocking
Exercise
How did you try to deal with it?
- Desperation
- Need for knowledge, different perspectives
- Death
- Lost at sea
Can I get a meaning / message from this?
- Belly of the whale, building up from scratch behind scrutiny
Heidegger - where is my libido for life?
Depression normally happens in the summer when the environment doesn’t reflect the inner
Transpersonal is not all holy, but revolutionary
Looks at transpersonal experience
- Key is to look at what happens afterwards
Exercise
Think about a spiritual awakening
- Questioning truth,
- realisation of spiral dynamics / Pluralisation of truths
- Recognition of previous conformity / achieved / expert stage
- Letting go / death
- Wished there was more people to share experience with / noticing the individual journey
- No application yet
- Developing calmness in allowing to sit with it, knowing that the time sitting provides meaning
- Feeling of new structure, building a super power not known and realised yet
- In conflict with external pressures
- Developing love for all beings
A
- What meaning did this experience have?
- What understanding and insights did it bring?
- How did you feel about it afterwards?
B
- Was there anyone you tried to share it with?
- Did they understand?
C
- In the following period, did it cause you to make any changes in your life?
- Did you do anything with this experience?
D
- Were there any negative or challenging experiences during this time for you?
Notes
I feel I have found many convergences backing up my change
- Theoretical models
- Visceral responses
- The longer I sit with the uncomfortable being the closer I touch the reality of the situation
But I haven’t found application for this new structure of being
- I will continue searching
Time and others expectations are placing pressure
- Need to find a practise that loosens these pressures so that I don’t fall into a choice
Discernment is then we are trying to enforce our experience onto others
- Sometimes it comes out as the enlightened feeling cyclic / telepathic connection
- Could lead to cult
Major takeaways
- I feel I have found many convergences backing up my change
  - Theoretical models
  - Visceral responses
  - The longer I sit with the uncomfortable being the closer I touch the reality of the situation
- But I haven’t found application for this new structure of being
  - I will continue searching
- Time and others expectations are placing pressure
  - Need to find a practise that loosens these pressures so that I don’t fall into a choice
- Look at - Peter A. Levine - Body centred

Personal Feedback

Which ideas have you found the most helpful, meaningful or challenging? Which exercises?: The Gestalt exercise was interesting. I felt able to explore a dialogue with my vision of Self in a participatory way, including close connection with my feelings responses to challenging questions. I felt challenged however to access areas of interest I didn’t have the vocab / knowledge of which might need a deeper breaking of frame. However I realised I was on the course for this area of study, so I felt I took a small step in the right orientation which was great.
What has been the high point or major learning of this course for you?: Discussing some definitions of transpersonal felt magical. I was uplifted and left with a wealth of positive wonder and awe that I can contemplate. It felt like some aspects of the training and outside the training were coming together, providing a closer and more clear grasp of reality.
What has been the quality of the conceptual content? Its organisation? Continuity? Presentation? Clarity?: I had a mix of clarity and confusion. I felt the term Immanence was mentioned with significance, but I didn’t grasp its meaning and relevance. This threw me out of sync with what was being taught and into potentially self-deception.
Has there been anything missing from the course or anything you would have liked more of given the time limits? Was there anything which did not work for you or which could have worked more effectively if changed?: More time on the term Immanence
What comments do you have about the course trainer(s) and assistants? How was your relationship with the trainer(s)?: As always I felt the trainers where articulate, responsive, and fun

Outline of weekend

Exercise

Exercise 2

Situation that felt sacred

Situation that felt authentic

Take experiences

Notes

Others

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Other notes

Meditation - temple of silence

Personal Feedback