A personal account of my experience on the course

How did I get here

The pressure to find out what truth is, laid on by previous chapters in life forced me to open up many questions and directions for study. One man I developed a lot of respect and trust for in the world of psychology, suggesting this course. So, with time on my hands I read some books, of which I liked, and took the leap of faith. I knew this course would challenge me in ways I had not experienced before.

What is psychosynthesis to me

I have loved to learn the history of psychosynthesis. From behaviour psychology, through to psychoanalysis then humanistic psychology and beyond. I have gained the insight in how it has included its history as part of the journey, without disposing of concepts along the way, but instead using them as reference points.

I has noticed that psychosynthesis has adopted the empirical scientific approach. Unlike other psychology practises, it seems to place more emphasis on insight than inferential processing. This in turn leans towards the cultivation of trust in the transpersonal domain. So, even though it isn’t religious, there is some element of faith and an navigating approach towards the aspect of life that feel like infinity such as love and nature. It feels as if the practice is like a dialogue with a sage as a source of inspiration without telling you what to do or be.

How has psychosynthesis impacted me

My studies have shown me how the previous chapters in my life have trained me to lean towards inferential processing. Computer studies are very much factual and value efficiency and resilience, team work and transparency. The practises brought me closer to human expression and reminded me that I have lost my connection with my own individual expression, passion, love and impact on the world. I had indeed sacrificed myself towards the herd, building expertise and security in the peak of my physical capacity. This life came to an end and I was left needing something like this. I embraced it for its learning journey.

I like the concepts. They are not too difficult to understand. However, I noticed my lack of practise in connection with my body and feelings. I also realised I had trained myself to think analytically and a speed. This strong and skilful Will dominated the space where love and attention also exists. I found that I was not practised here. I have a journey ahead of me to reframe my being and train myself to be more balanced.

What was easy in the course

With my Will pushing me along, I found I was keeping up with the theory. I also loved studying content outside of psychosynthesis, bringing a convergence of the different languages and noticing the different approaches to similar problems.

What was challenging in the course

My connection with other people in the course was a challenge. However, I think that it may well be a theme throughout my life due to my inferential approach to relating. I also found the cultivation of trust hard. Is there a part of me that has more influence of my actions than my thoughts and will? It is hard to let go.

Counselling was hard. I had to listen, be attentive and give. I found it even more challenging when I saw the other students being self-destructive.

How has psychosynthesis impacted humanity

I don’t think much of society is ready for this approach to life. We are trained to do and not be. Business seems to be the religion at the moment and with it comes brutal competition. However, on the fringes are lost souls, searching for alleviation from their confusion of reality.

What might be next

I am not quite sure if I am the right key for this career path. Instead of falling into the next year, I have decided to learn from my experience on the course and take a step back, have an inner-dialogue with my higher self and see if a calling emerges.

In the mean time, I wish to try out this inner-dialogue app and see what happens. I am a bit afraid of sacrificing my life back to computers instead of trying something brand new. However, I have parental and partner pressures with the expectation to have a career and bring in some money, so this feel like it might serve this without a full time commitment.